It’s Official…

…I am at my highest weight, ever! It’s depressing and shameful, but not all that surprising. There is so much I could be doing for my health but haven’t been trying hard enough, or at all if I’m being honest.

Over the weekend I took a look at my goals and figured out which ones I was on track with and which ones I wasn’t. I saw a meme the other day on Instagram: January was a free trial month. My knee is healing and I’m moving around more now. Slowly, but surely, my daily steps have increased. I restarted my supplement regimen and am taking my medicine more consistently. For the most part, I’ve really cut back on dining out this month as well.

January wraps up today and tomorrow is a new day. A new month. A fresh start. I’m going to continue my progress on the things mentioned above that I’m doing OK at. Changes for the month include starting PT for my knee, focusing on nutrition, and decluttering our apartment.

For physical therapy, I’m supposed to be working on my range of motion. This means hitting the gym at my apartment complex and becoming friends with the stationary bike for at least 20 mins a day. Alright, that’s easy enough, right? Then why haven’t I been doing it?? This HAS TO BE a priority if my knee surgery is to truly be a success. I don’t want a messed up knee.

Logging my food will probably be my best bet to get my nutrition on track. How can something be fixed if you don’t know the extent of the problem? Decreasing carb intake is the main goal of logging my meals. Insulin resistance makes it difficult to process carbs normally and has really lead to weight gain, especially around my belly. A ketogenic diet has worked the best for me previously in trying to lose weight. However, that was difficult because the best foods in life are carb-ilicious! Paleo, Whole 30, and Clean Eating are all fairly similar to me and I’ll be using their recipes and meal ideas as starting points. I will be trying to cut back on carbs to my previous doctor’s recommendation of less than 100g. Gotta go home and dust off our little food scale.

The last major change this coming month is decluttering and getting rid of stuff. Having a messy home can cause stress, even if you’re not consciously aware of it. Why do you think so many people clean when they have a big project to work on? Yes, it’s procrastination, but it is also a way of clearing your mind and allowing creativity to flow. We have a small apartment and two dogs. We’re not hoarders but we’re also not neat freaks. We have more clothes than we need (mostly my husband – in my obese state, I currently hate clothes shopping). This leads to piles of laundry and I hate putting up laundry so there are clothes all over the freaking place. I also have lots of art and crafts type items that I don’t use. I keep them around “just in case” a project needs them. Unfortunately, I’m all ideas and no execution. I’m just tired of seeing all the cluttered spaces around our home because it overwhelms me to the point that I don’t even know where to start and give up immediately. But no more!  So buh-bye. You gots to go, stuff.

Who’s with me on pushing the restart button to the year?!

 

 

 

 

September Goals 2015

Today is the start of another month already. So many people I know have birthdays in this month, including my lovely mother and two of my nephews. I should really start the search for the perfect gift for her.

This month also marks the beginning of Pumpkin Spice EVERYTHING! I realized the other day I’ve never had a Pumpkin Spice Latte…ever! Maybe if I did, would I understand the obsession? I’m scared. 😛

That is going to be one of my goals this month. Albeit, a silly one. I’m allowed to have some fun, though, right? 😀

Full disclosure: I sucked at meeting my goals last month. At least for fitness and diet. :/ I lost my motivation almost from the start.

August 2015 Goals

  • Fitness/Health: I am stalled at week 5 of the C25K running program. I looked ahead and got scared. It starts with 3 (or 5, I can’t remember) minutes of jogging. From the start! Like, what?? If I don’t think about it I’m sure I could do it and I’m just psyching myself out. :/ I also gained back the two pounds I managed to lose in July. So much for that...
  • Diet: I did not stay under 100 g of carbs a day, often, or away from dairy/gluten (inflammatory). We did not have a fast-food free month. Especially towards the start of my menstrual cycle. With my already low levels of iron, I was really craving beef. So why not get a burger? How foolish. I also had pizza for the first time in months. That wasn’t too bad but I did eat more than I should have.
  • Home: We found a new apartment! This is one goal I managed to meet. We move in the last week of September. Our new apartment is smaller and less expensive, but it has a small fenced in area off the patio so we can let the doggies out to potty and not have to stand outside waiting. I can’t wait to go look at some new furniture and I’m already planning out the layout.
  • Relationships: I managed to go out with friends a few times this month. Hubby and I didn’t have an official date night, but we did find a new show to watch on Netflix and spent this weekend at his parents together.
  • Emotional/Mental Health: I’ve cut back on biting my nails. I’ve been working on being more conscious of when I’m doing it. Chamomile tea helps. I didn’t blog twice a week like I wanted, but I did write more than July.

Now, for September, as far as diet goes, I’m working on it one day at a time, one week at a time. 

September 2015 Goals:

  1. This month I’ll be focusing on eating more whole foods and less processed junk. I’ll be sharing what I eat on instagram to keep myself accountable, so please follow me if you want. I’ve searched Pinterest for recipe inspirations. I’ll be trying to follow a mix of Whole 30 and Paleo diets. One week at a time. (Except for this pumpkin spice latte everyone talks about.)
  2. Camp Gladiator is celebrating its 7th birthday this year and had a special. I grabbed up two memberships for hubby and I for under $30! That’s a one hour boot camp-style fitness class, with unlimited sessions, for four weeks. I plan to go at least twice a week, but most likely three times if I go with hubby on Saturday mornings. The weather is cooling down so I also want to take at least two long walks a week around the trail by my apartment.
  3. We’ve already started doing some packing and purging in preparation for our move. We have several bags full of clothes to donate and we’re not done yet. I need to get more boxes to really make a dent in all our stuff. Every time we’ve moved in the past, we have left things to the last minute and put undue stress on ourselves and loved ones helping out. This time I plan on having things ready to go and that way I can spend the last few days of our lease making sure the apartment is as best it can be to maximize the return of our deposit.

That’s really all I can manage to put most of my focus on for now. I’m really antsy to get home and pack something each day and I’m really excited about our new apartment. I’ll miss our current dog park because it was so convenient but the new place is right next to a major trail that leads to a recently renovated city dog park. 🙂 I can’t wait!!

Thanks for reading this absurdly long post. If you know me IRL, I’d appreciate your support by asking me how my diet or fitness goals are going every once in a while. And if anyone has any moving or packing tips, or if you’ve been to a Camp Gladiator session before, let me know your experience! 😀

Finding the Motivation to Keep Going

I admit it. This month has been terrible. I lost my motivation to push myself at my workouts, to be consistent, and to eat healthy. For the month of July I didn’t lose much weight, especially in comparison to the month of June. It was discouraging and this month was worse. I did gain strength through my weight training so I’ve seen some progress but I want to see the pounds coming off. I want to be as close to 200 as possible by my birthday. I know I can do it. I just need to be consistent!

Last night I started working on planning meals for the week. This included trying to plan around any activities I might be doing so that I don’t end up eating bad when I’m out. I used Pinterest to search for Whole 30 and Paleo meal ideas. I like the whole 30 program because it focuses on real food and Paleo because it helps avoid gluten and dairy. I can definitely notice a difference in how I feel when I avoid both versus when I don’t. The symptoms range from digestional issues to having a constantly stuffy nose, which is really annoying. 

This month I was also told I was pretty anemic. I had to go to a hematologist and received an IV infusion of iron just to try to bring my levels up to normal. Usually this is done for people with severe kidney disease! I’m also having to double up on my supplements, and if I can tolerate it I was told to triple it. My body is having problems absorbing the iron. Dietary changes would probably help so I really need to do this for my ultimate health. I’ll have to go back in December to see if my levels go up and if they don’t I’ll have to do another infusion. That’s something I’d really prefer to avoid. Due to my anemia and the fact that my blood cells are smaller than normal, my veins are super thin. I was poked four times. Four extremely painful times. My veins kept moving or just simply collapsed/disappeared. It was not a good experience.

As for exercise, my plan for September is to be consistent and step it back up. Coincidentally, Camp Gladiator had a sale this past week for their 7th birthday. I was able to scoop up a 4-week camp session that starts next Monday for a great price. I signed up because there’s one right across the street from our apartment and you can go to as many sessions a week as you want! I’m really looking forward to meeting new people and pushing myself.

To keep myself accountable, I’m going to try and post often on one social media platform or another what I’m eating and/or what my exercise plan for the day is. I can’t give up. I may not have the motivation I would like but you gotta fake it till you make it! 

Have you ever lost your motivation and how did you get past it?